Operation hot bod...

I am determined to get my freaking body back. In order to do that I have started running, well trying to run. I figure I can run about 1/2 a mile so far, while walking the other 1/2 of the mile. As long as its not raining, I plan on getting my butt of the couch and out the door to try and hopefully run a full mile at the end of two weeks. On top of running, I have been doing a killer ab workout, so hopefully with the combo of both, the weight will just start falling off.
 It sucks right now because I have been working out for about 2 months and I don't really see a change yet. I mean, I have toned up a little, but not to where I thought I would be after two months. I know my eating habits is probably sabotaging my get fit plan, but this week I have curbed in the calories.
So, We shall see where I am at in another two weeks. Hopefully I will start to notice the pants fitting a bit looser.

Where's the light?

This week, and last week for that matter, just kinda, well, suck. It seems like everything I do, I just do it wrong. I feel like a little kid with the amount of screw ups and scoldings I have been getting. And even when I do do something right, it just doesn't matter, goes unnoticed. I have to find a way to rid myself of this negativity so I can get back on the right track. Need to find the positive light again, because right now, it is very dark.

Easter...

Did a bird blow up? love the feather tree

Lesson Learned.....

It is amazing what you can find while cleaning the house. Lots of lost things tend to appear when you do a deep cleaning of your living space, and that is just what happened tonight. I also discovered something about myself, I am stronger than I thought I was. I can overcome anything, and I will live a life that makes me happy.

Cleaning is so therapeutic, and as I clean, I find myself thinking about what has happened, what is going to happen, and what is happening right now. As I reflect, I tell myself, I am NOT going to have the wool pulled over my eyes again. I tell myself to trust my gut. I tell myself that everything happens for a reason. And then I tell myself that the next step is going to hard, but stick to my guns and stand strong. Remain calm, everything will turn out ok in the end.